Sat here now hanckering thinking about drinking persistently. thinking about where and why and how. thinking about drinking but not drinking now. Just one last blow out, blow the stresses away. one simple drink at the end of the day. But thinking about drinking is really the start of the downwards spiral into the … Continue reading The lord and the devil….
So, one week into ‘operation quit drinking ‘ phase 2. And i’m Feeling very mixed. I feel determined, confused, apprehensive and a bit sad. I feel different emotions every hour or so, with varying degrees of extremity. Like my mind is yet to settle and become content. In fact, come to think about it, I … Continue reading Recovery – week 1. Emotional management
Something has finally snapped. It’s a different energy now. I’ve had enough. I want to go beer free for good. The efforts of the turn of the year were finite. I always intended to go back to drinking deep down. The intention was to go back and become a ‘normal drinker’. But the truth it … Continue reading I’m an alcoholic. Now what.
Well, how do I say this? I failed. I didn’t complete the year. I came hurtling off the track... And landed face down in a big dollop of humble pie! Where do I start? It’s been a while since my last blog. So much has happened, or hasn’t happened as it turns out is the case. … Continue reading The middle way 🙂
Today is my girlfriend Ruth's birthday. She loves birthdays! I think today is a perfect time to give aknowledgment to her for her part in my alcohol free journey. Quite honestly, I would never have done it if it wasn't for her. She made me see things differently. She woke me up. And I'm so … Continue reading Happy Birthday Ruth x
What a glorious bank holiday weekend it's been! The sun showed up for the full weekend, and its the first time, in probably 20 years, that i haven't craved a drink of alcohol on a weekend like that. Instead I was out in the garden, baking in the sun whilst mowing my lawn, planting, potting, … Continue reading Sunny drinks turn sour.
Week 14 body composition stats below: So even though there hasn't been any improvement in any areas, this is the most pleasing update for me! That is because I feel like my momentum with diet and exercise has hit a brick wall over the last two weeks. Easter happened, and that brought with it a … Continue reading 14 weeks sober. How much better can life get!?
I've been thinking about this question for a while recently, often whilst aimlessly scrolling through my facebook feed for the 40th time in the day. About 2 years ago I had had enough. I plucked up the 'courage' and deleted Facebook. I survived. I found other things to fill my spare, lazy attention. I became … Continue reading Does Facebook kill human motivation?
Do you ever start some new adventure, or regime with gusto and then slowly it grinds to a halt? Or you reach a point about 2/3 months later and then check back in and think 'what's just happened, where did that time go?, how have we got to the 16th March already!' Like you've been … Continue reading What happened when I switched off Autopilot and had a look at how far I’d travelled?