This is turning out to be more of a journey than I thought. Twists, turns. Ups, huge downs, hard work, good times, hard times... who’d’ve thunk it. ...... It started as an egoic quest to remove thy self willing sword and strike it against the evil deamon of alcohol. To gallantly hold it’s head up … Continue reading Should I quit alcohol for good?
Nearly 6 months not drinking!! I never thought I'd say that. Ive got to be honest, it's slowing down now. Time, I mean. I feel like at the start of the year my determination for not drinking was so high, and I was blogging about it every day, it was exciting, I was making new … Continue reading Significance through sobriety.
I've been thinking about this question for a while recently, often whilst aimlessly scrolling through my facebook feed for the 40th time in the day. About 2 years ago I had had enough. I plucked up the 'courage' and deleted Facebook. I survived. I found other things to fill my spare, lazy attention. I became … Continue reading Does Facebook kill human motivation?
Today is been HARD!!! The hardest day yet of the Super Blend Me! Challenge. Today is day 6. And it's Saturday. And not only am i not drinking for the whole year. But I'm now not eating. On a wknd. What pleasure is there left!? The superblend me challenge is a set period of time, 7, … Continue reading Self harm, or self preservation!?
0530 - Did a morning 'detox' yoga sequence (YouTube video). Felt weak. Meditated for 20 mins. Busy mind took a while to settle. Went back to bed for an hour, just resting. 0812 - Snow on the ground. Freezing walking around work. Feeling very cold. Need a warm bowl of porridge or something. Oh wait! … Continue reading Fasting – Day 3 effects…
You know them days when you just don't feel like getting out of bed. When you feel like your whole body is aching and your mind can't settle. Had one of them today. But I had mentally booked myself in for a 'YouTube yoga' session, and so after summoning up all my willpower, I dragged … Continue reading Mind/Body tensions.
Before committing to a year off drinking, I was worried that I didn't have it in me. I was worried that I would fold and show the world my weakness of character and mind. Now I know that I'm only in February! But I am getting stronger and stronger with it. And I still haven't … Continue reading Self discipline without clouded judgment ..