This is turning out to be more of a journey than I thought. Twists, turns. Ups, huge downs, hard work, good times, hard times... who’d’ve thunk it. ...... It started as an egoic quest to remove thy self willing sword and strike it against the evil deamon of alcohol. To gallantly hold it’s head up … Continue reading Should I quit alcohol for good?
I previously blogged about values and principles. This blog was an attempt to understand them and the differences between them. Principles of living are so strong that they create the paradigm from which we view the world, view life. We live within our own set of principals subconsciously as we believe that that is the … Continue reading Stuck between paradigms.
The biggest test yet has now been passed. It was my sisters wedding this weekend. The event of the year, a big glamorous wedding in a medieval castle in Cheshire. A fairytale setting. After a stressful morning and journey to the castle, We arrived a couple of hours early. The rest of the groomsmen were … Continue reading Beer free wedding!
30 days sober today... Really it should have been 10 months however. This blog was originally called ‘Matts beer free year’. That was the target. 1 year. On pure will power. It was not to be. I racked up nearly 7 months sober. But the wheels came off in mid July. In the height of … Continue reading 30 down, 15000(ish) to go…..
Went out yesterday. It was a pre wedding drinks for the ushers etc. An exchange of suits and a big old knees up. Got to say I found it fairly hard. And boring. Granted, I was tired. Been a tough few weeks. And also really the lads I was with were not ‘my group’ of … Continue reading Sobriety. Dealing with disconnect.
So, one week into ‘operation quit drinking ‘ phase 2. And i’m Feeling very mixed. I feel determined, confused, apprehensive and a bit sad. I feel different emotions every hour or so, with varying degrees of extremity. Like my mind is yet to settle and become content. In fact, come to think about it, I … Continue reading Recovery – week 1. Emotional management
Something has finally snapped. It’s a different energy now. I’ve had enough. I want to go beer free for good. The efforts of the turn of the year were finite. I always intended to go back to drinking deep down. The intention was to go back and become a ‘normal drinker’. But the truth it … Continue reading I’m an alcoholic. Now what.
A year is a long time! I underestimated it. But if I can take anything away from the efforts of this year, I can safely say that what we consume, in any form has a direct effect on our mood and our performance. It’s not groundbreaking news I know. But experiencially, it’s useful knowledge. One … Continue reading Super blend me (take 2)
So the question is, can I still call this blog ‘Matts beerfreeyear!?’ As I mentioned in my previous blog, I have a new paradigm now. I am practicing moderation. I feel good about it. I feel freer than before I started the year, and freer than the last few months. My urge to drink Thursday, … Continue reading A new paradigm!
Well, how do I say this? I failed. I didn’t complete the year. I came hurtling off the track... And landed face down in a big dollop of humble pie! Where do I start? It’s been a while since my last blog. So much has happened, or hasn’t happened as it turns out is the case. … Continue reading The middle way 🙂