The biggest test yet has now been passed. It was my sisters wedding this weekend. The event of the year, a big glamorous wedding in a medieval castle in Cheshire. A fairytale setting. After a stressful morning and journey to the castle, We arrived a couple of hours early. The rest of the groomsmen were … Continue reading Beer free wedding!
So, one week into ‘operation quit drinking ‘ phase 2. And i’m Feeling very mixed. I feel determined, confused, apprehensive and a bit sad. I feel different emotions every hour or so, with varying degrees of extremity. Like my mind is yet to settle and become content. In fact, come to think about it, I … Continue reading Recovery – week 1. Emotional management
Something has finally snapped. It’s a different energy now. I’ve had enough. I want to go beer free for good. The efforts of the turn of the year were finite. I always intended to go back to drinking deep down. The intention was to go back and become a ‘normal drinker’. But the truth it … Continue reading I’m an alcoholic. Now what.
So the question is, can I still call this blog ‘Matts beerfreeyear!?’ As I mentioned in my previous blog, I have a new paradigm now. I am practicing moderation. I feel good about it. I feel freer than before I started the year, and freer than the last few months. My urge to drink Thursday, … Continue reading A new paradigm!
Well, how do I say this? I failed. I didn’t complete the year. I came hurtling off the track... And landed face down in a big dollop of humble pie! Where do I start? It’s been a while since my last blog. So much has happened, or hasn’t happened as it turns out is the case. … Continue reading The middle way 🙂
I was dripping with sweat. I felt dizzy, and wobbly. My mind could not think straight, tunnel vision. All I could see was Bars, chalk and bloody hands. I clambered over to the 20kg bar, with 10kg plates on either side, and picked it up for my final 9 reps. Determined, I front squatted and … Continue reading Crossfit initiation.. ‘Fran’…
Ours minds are chaotic. Have you ever just sat and watched your mind? For a couple of moments, or a couple of weeks? Just detached yourself from the mind and become the observer. I don't know about you but my mind is like sitting in front of the television with the remote control and thousands … Continue reading Holding the remote control to your mind.
Nearly 6 months not drinking!! I never thought I'd say that. Ive got to be honest, it's slowing down now. Time, I mean. I feel like at the start of the year my determination for not drinking was so high, and I was blogging about it every day, it was exciting, I was making new … Continue reading Significance through sobriety.