The title of the last blog was, Should I quit alcohol for good? I was sat in the pub on a Thursday night after work, just having one beer with food when I wrote that. After an unplanned drinking session, drinking myself into another day off work the next day. I realised finally....... The answer … Continue reading Step 1 – I admit I am powerless over alcohol.
30 days sober today... Really it should have been 10 months however. This blog was originally called ‘Matts beer free year’. That was the target. 1 year. On pure will power. It was not to be. I racked up nearly 7 months sober. But the wheels came off in mid July. In the height of … Continue reading 30 down, 15000(ish) to go…..
So, one week into ‘operation quit drinking ‘ phase 2. And i’m Feeling very mixed. I feel determined, confused, apprehensive and a bit sad. I feel different emotions every hour or so, with varying degrees of extremity. Like my mind is yet to settle and become content. In fact, come to think about it, I … Continue reading Recovery – week 1. Emotional management
Something has finally snapped. It’s a different energy now. I’ve had enough. I want to go beer free for good. The efforts of the turn of the year were finite. I always intended to go back to drinking deep down. The intention was to go back and become a ‘normal drinker’. But the truth it … Continue reading I’m an alcoholic. Now what.
Well, how do I say this? I failed. I didn’t complete the year. I came hurtling off the track... And landed face down in a big dollop of humble pie! Where do I start? It’s been a while since my last blog. So much has happened, or hasn’t happened as it turns out is the case. … Continue reading The middle way 🙂
I was dripping with sweat. I felt dizzy, and wobbly. My mind could not think straight, tunnel vision. All I could see was Bars, chalk and bloody hands. I clambered over to the 20kg bar, with 10kg plates on either side, and picked it up for my final 9 reps. Determined, I front squatted and … Continue reading Crossfit initiation.. ‘Fran’…
I think I've found it! That missing thing for my health and fitness, that I've been searching for since the start of the year.. I'm more or less forced into morning workouts, due to work constraints and then spending time with Family after work. So I've tried, the gym, on my own at 0600. That … Continue reading Crossfit is the answer!
Do you know when you get knocked out of your flow in life and you find it so hard to get going again. Well I've had a lot of that going on recently. I was flying! I was up at 0500 every morning, insanity training, eating healthy, motivated at work, focussing on bigger goals etc. … Continue reading Resting guiltily….
How much damage can 20 years of binge drinking do to a body? To a mind? I know the liver takes the brunt of the abuse over the years. And that it has phenomenal powers of recovery. But what about the brain? What about the mind? What about injuries sustained whilst drinking? I once woke … Continue reading The damage of binge drinking.
Completed insanity day 10 today. Ok, it's taken me 13 days, cos I failed to hit the 5am get ups 3 times in 2 weeks. But 10 high intensity training sessions in 13 days is not too bad in my mind. I'd love to catch up though and today I intended to do two sessions … Continue reading 10 HIITs in 13 days….