This is turning out to be more of a journey than I thought. Twists, turns. Ups, huge downs, hard work, good times, hard times... who’d’ve thunk it. ...... It started as an egoic quest to remove thy self willing sword and strike it against the evil deamon of alcohol. To gallantly hold it’s head up … Continue reading Should I quit alcohol for good?
I previously blogged about values and principles. This blog was an attempt to understand them and the differences between them. Principles of living are so strong that they create the paradigm from which we view the world, view life. We live within our own set of principals subconsciously as we believe that that is the … Continue reading Stuck between paradigms.
7 months sober, 2months of drinking again. Wow. 7 months of sobriety gave me a clear head like I had NEVER felt before. Never in my whole adult life anyway. Then with this fresh perspective I delved back into the world of drinking. Convinced that I could moderate this time. It was all an illusion. … Continue reading 7 months sober, 2 months drinking. The damage comparison.
The biggest test yet has now been passed. It was my sisters wedding this weekend. The event of the year, a big glamorous wedding in a medieval castle in Cheshire. A fairytale setting. After a stressful morning and journey to the castle, We arrived a couple of hours early. The rest of the groomsmen were … Continue reading Beer free wedding!
What are values? And what are principals? And what is the difference? What are my specific values and principals and do I live by them? What impact does living in line with ones own values and principles does it have on a persons overall sense of intrinsic worth? What happens when the two peoples, or … Continue reading What are Values and principals.
So, one week into ‘operation quit drinking ‘ phase 2. And i’m Feeling very mixed. I feel determined, confused, apprehensive and a bit sad. I feel different emotions every hour or so, with varying degrees of extremity. Like my mind is yet to settle and become content. In fact, come to think about it, I … Continue reading Recovery – week 1. Emotional management
Something has finally snapped. It’s a different energy now. I’ve had enough. I want to go beer free for good. The efforts of the turn of the year were finite. I always intended to go back to drinking deep down. The intention was to go back and become a ‘normal drinker’. But the truth it … Continue reading I’m an alcoholic. Now what.
So the question is, can I still call this blog ‘Matts beerfreeyear!?’ As I mentioned in my previous blog, I have a new paradigm now. I am practicing moderation. I feel good about it. I feel freer than before I started the year, and freer than the last few months. My urge to drink Thursday, … Continue reading A new paradigm!
So England are into the quarter finals! Finally put the penalty hoodoo to rest. Hard to beleive we have NEVER won a World Cup game on penalties. Until Columbia... The local pub was HEAVING! They were spilling out onto the streets. Heads were bobbing up and down trying to get a line of sight, good … Continue reading Alcohol free England Games!
I think I've found it! That missing thing for my health and fitness, that I've been searching for since the start of the year.. I'm more or less forced into morning workouts, due to work constraints and then spending time with Family after work. So I've tried, the gym, on my own at 0600. That … Continue reading Crossfit is the answer!