30 days sober today... Really it should have been 10 months however. This blog was originally called ‘Matts beer free year’. That was the target. 1 year. On pure will power. It was not to be. I racked up nearly 7 months sober. But the wheels came off in mid July. In the height of … Continue reading 30 down, 15000(ish) to go…..
What are values? And what are principals? And what is the difference? What are my specific values and principals and do I live by them? What impact does living in line with ones own values and principles does it have on a persons overall sense of intrinsic worth? What happens when the two peoples, or … Continue reading What are Values and principals.
Went out yesterday. It was a pre wedding drinks for the ushers etc. An exchange of suits and a big old knees up. Got to say I found it fairly hard. And boring. Granted, I was tired. Been a tough few weeks. And also really the lads I was with were not ‘my group’ of … Continue reading Sobriety. Dealing with disconnect.
This part of my life is called....... work! Get up, go to work, come home DIY till 2100, sleep, repeat.. 2 weeks solid. Fried head. Somehow decided that I am a capable bathroom fitter and DIY specialist. Yes I can throw a tile on a wall, but do I really want to? Not anymore. Next … Continue reading DIY aids sobriety.
So, one week into ‘operation quit drinking ‘ phase 2. And i’m Feeling very mixed. I feel determined, confused, apprehensive and a bit sad. I feel different emotions every hour or so, with varying degrees of extremity. Like my mind is yet to settle and become content. In fact, come to think about it, I … Continue reading Recovery – week 1. Emotional management
Something has finally snapped. It’s a different energy now. I’ve had enough. I want to go beer free for good. The efforts of the turn of the year were finite. I always intended to go back to drinking deep down. The intention was to go back and become a ‘normal drinker’. But the truth it … Continue reading I’m an alcoholic. Now what.
So the question is, can I still call this blog ‘Matts beerfreeyear!?’ As I mentioned in my previous blog, I have a new paradigm now. I am practicing moderation. I feel good about it. I feel freer than before I started the year, and freer than the last few months. My urge to drink Thursday, … Continue reading A new paradigm!
Well, how do I say this? I failed. I didn’t complete the year. I came hurtling off the track... And landed face down in a big dollop of humble pie! Where do I start? It’s been a while since my last blog. So much has happened, or hasn’t happened as it turns out is the case. … Continue reading The middle way 🙂