So, one week into ‘operation quit drinking ‘ phase 2. And i’m Feeling very mixed. I feel determined, confused, apprehensive and a bit sad. I feel different emotions every hour or so, with varying degrees of extremity. Like my mind is yet to settle and become content. In fact, come to think about it, I … Continue reading Recovery – week 1. Emotional management
Something has finally snapped. It’s a different energy now. I’ve had enough. I want to go beer free for good. The efforts of the turn of the year were finite. I always intended to go back to drinking deep down. The intention was to go back and become a ‘normal drinker’. But the truth it … Continue reading I’m an alcoholic. Now what.
So the question is, can I still call this blog ‘Matts beerfreeyear!?’ As I mentioned in my previous blog, I have a new paradigm now. I am practicing moderation. I feel good about it. I feel freer than before I started the year, and freer than the last few months. My urge to drink Thursday, … Continue reading A new paradigm!
Well, how do I say this? I failed. I didn’t complete the year. I came hurtling off the track... And landed face down in a big dollop of humble pie! Where do I start? It’s been a while since my last blog. So much has happened, or hasn’t happened as it turns out is the case. … Continue reading The middle way 🙂
So England are into the quarter finals! Finally put the penalty hoodoo to rest. Hard to beleive we have NEVER won a World Cup game on penalties. Until Columbia... The local pub was HEAVING! They were spilling out onto the streets. Heads were bobbing up and down trying to get a line of sight, good … Continue reading Alcohol free England Games!
Ours minds are chaotic. Have you ever just sat and watched your mind? For a couple of moments, or a couple of weeks? Just detached yourself from the mind and become the observer. I don't know about you but my mind is like sitting in front of the television with the remote control and thousands … Continue reading Holding the remote control to your mind.
Nearly 6 months not drinking!! I never thought I'd say that. Ive got to be honest, it's slowing down now. Time, I mean. I feel like at the start of the year my determination for not drinking was so high, and I was blogging about it every day, it was exciting, I was making new … Continue reading Significance through sobriety.
Do you know when you get knocked out of your flow in life and you find it so hard to get going again. Well I've had a lot of that going on recently. I was flying! I was up at 0500 every morning, insanity training, eating healthy, motivated at work, focussing on bigger goals etc. … Continue reading Resting guiltily….
How much damage can 20 years of binge drinking do to a body? To a mind? I know the liver takes the brunt of the abuse over the years. And that it has phenomenal powers of recovery. But what about the brain? What about the mind? What about injuries sustained whilst drinking? I once woke … Continue reading The damage of binge drinking.
Today is my girlfriend Ruth's birthday. She loves birthdays! I think today is a perfect time to give aknowledgment to her for her part in my alcohol free journey. Quite honestly, I would never have done it if it wasn't for her. She made me see things differently. She woke me up. And I'm so … Continue reading Happy Birthday Ruth x