Sat here now hanckering thinking about drinking persistently. thinking about where and why and how. thinking about drinking but not drinking now. Just one last blow out, blow the stresses away. one simple drink at the end of the day. But thinking about drinking is really the start of the downwards spiral into the … Continue reading The lord and the devil….
So, one week into ‘operation quit drinking ‘ phase 2. And i’m Feeling very mixed. I feel determined, confused, apprehensive and a bit sad. I feel different emotions every hour or so, with varying degrees of extremity. Like my mind is yet to settle and become content. In fact, come to think about it, I … Continue reading Recovery – week 1. Emotional management
Something has finally snapped. It’s a different energy now. I’ve had enough. I want to go beer free for good. The efforts of the turn of the year were finite. I always intended to go back to drinking deep down. The intention was to go back and become a ‘normal drinker’. But the truth it … Continue reading I’m an alcoholic. Now what.
A year is a long time! I underestimated it. But if I can take anything away from the efforts of this year, I can safely say that what we consume, in any form has a direct effect on our mood and our performance. It’s not groundbreaking news I know. But experiencially, it’s useful knowledge. One … Continue reading Super blend me (take 2)
So the question is, can I still call this blog ‘Matts beerfreeyear!?’ As I mentioned in my previous blog, I have a new paradigm now. I am practicing moderation. I feel good about it. I feel freer than before I started the year, and freer than the last few months. My urge to drink Thursday, … Continue reading A new paradigm!
Well, how do I say this? I failed. I didn’t complete the year. I came hurtling off the track... And landed face down in a big dollop of humble pie! Where do I start? It’s been a while since my last blog. So much has happened, or hasn’t happened as it turns out is the case. … Continue reading The middle way 🙂
I was dripping with sweat. I felt dizzy, and wobbly. My mind could not think straight, tunnel vision. All I could see was Bars, chalk and bloody hands. I clambered over to the 20kg bar, with 10kg plates on either side, and picked it up for my final 9 reps. Determined, I front squatted and … Continue reading Crossfit initiation.. ‘Fran’…
So England are into the quarter finals! Finally put the penalty hoodoo to rest. Hard to beleive we have NEVER won a World Cup game on penalties. Until Columbia... The local pub was HEAVING! They were spilling out onto the streets. Heads were bobbing up and down trying to get a line of sight, good … Continue reading Alcohol free England Games!
I think I've found it! That missing thing for my health and fitness, that I've been searching for since the start of the year.. I'm more or less forced into morning workouts, due to work constraints and then spending time with Family after work. So I've tried, the gym, on my own at 0600. That … Continue reading Crossfit is the answer!
Ours minds are chaotic. Have you ever just sat and watched your mind? For a couple of moments, or a couple of weeks? Just detached yourself from the mind and become the observer. I don't know about you but my mind is like sitting in front of the television with the remote control and thousands … Continue reading Holding the remote control to your mind.